CANDY IS PREGNANT!!!! omg~ her tummy and nipples are both growing bigger. omg laughZ cannot imagine candy as a mother. she is... little girl la~
anyway i took off today <3 12 today to 12 tmr. bleh that means immediately after church i gotta go immediately le. can't even go for log. blehh. but i'm just glad for the break la. my soul was simply draining away in camp. dreary. no matter how meaningful i find taking e recruits are, the sianness of army ultimately triumphs~
in any case u all have been asking why i made my blog private. quite a few reasons la. first is that now i have recruits so i dowan random ppl reading my blog. my last batch found my blog damn easily -.- also i wanted to do a stock check on who actually reads my blog. need to know my audience =) and of course, the veil of privacy. to provide me the illusion of security for more... freedom of expression. so now i can focus more on self-expression and not get distracted by theatrics. and lets just leave it at there.
my recruits <3 they're damn goodboy. lolz most of the times they get scolded for sins of omission, rather than sins of comission. so different from the pes C guys. one extreme all the way to the other. and rumor has it that our next batch is PTP standard faintZ lor. ugh. worlds apart. but this group also has its share of problems. one guy in my section... refuses to interact with his sectionmates. refuses not to be a loner. faintZ even after i thrash down every single one of his arguments (and that talk lasted an hour at least), he REFUSED to promise me not to intentionally set himself apart from the rest. waaa *pulls my hair out*. but i guess the reason i can beat down all his arguments is cos i myself have been there done that. can empathize. thats the double edged sword of taking this batch. i can empathize so much with them. i can remember vividly the apprehension of my enlistment, the dread of first bookin and so much more.
ok la better get down to the agenda for this off. was thinking of going to do cny shopping with ben. or maybe go out with someone. jh's bday or smth. and then log organized a disney movie marathon!!! omg i really would have wanted to go. but then i tot a bit more and decided that all i really wanted to do was just to come home and just. be at home. u know? come home. home. the comfort, the security and the solace that this building provides from the layers of memories in every nook and cranny here. to eat aunty anula's food. to hug brilliant and play with candy. just languish.
so i'm all bathed and clean in my fav obs singlet, eager to slip into my bed with my memory pillow <3 (80 dollar one!) and my quilt and dream sweet dreams. but the way i reacted today to certain events disturbed myself so i wanna log it. no point to make. just a record.
i played the piano today while my sis was sleeping. i walked past the room and saw her sleeping. but i just continued playing. didn't think abt it just wanted to play after not having touched it for so long. but when she woke up she said to me in a curt manner, "don't play your piano will die right mel". i would have retorted. i had my dad's backing since he always asks us to play our piano. but i quickly recognize that i was the insensitive one. and it really upset me... that the first thing i did after not being home for so long was to piss her off. so i went to my room and just hid behind my book on my bed. didn't wanna see her.
on the comp, i saw in my ChatZ group that a few ppl were online. xb was one but his status was away. and i wanted to talk! to say hi. to ask how's things. he'd probably find it random and give me his monosyllabic answers (lolz if my assumption is wrong pls feel free to tell me off) but i would still do it anyway. but i didn't. i just opened up the ChatZ group, see his name there, and then minimize it again. i did that a few times. then he went offline. and i still continued doing it to see who else was there for me to chat with. just to have the luxury of options. but they all dwindled.
and then at bmt. i was on form today that's the good thing. but when shang came i said hi, waved my racket and just looked away. ruolin was there too. i talked more to her than him. i think the only thing i said to him was to ask him how long more his course was gonna be. and when i said bye i didn't. couldn't. wouldn't. even look into his eyes. just looked down and muttered a bye. thanks for the game.
buts. but but but. but this but that. srry sleepy. hasta la vista
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
CANDY IS PREGNANT!!!! omg~ her tummy and nipples are both growing bigger. omg laughZ cannot imagine candy as a mother. she is... little girl la~
anyway i took off today <3 12 today to 12 tmr. bleh that means immediately after church i gotta go immediately le. can't even go for log. blehh. but i'm just glad for the break la. my soul was simply draining away in camp. dreary. no matter how meaningful i find taking e recruits are, the sianness of army ultimately triumphs~
in any case u all have been asking why i made my blog private. quite a few reasons la. first is that now i have recruits so i dowan random ppl reading my blog. my last batch found my blog damn easily -.- also i wanted to do a stock check on who actually reads my blog. need to know my audience =) and of course, the veil of privacy. to provide me the illusion of security for more... freedom of expression. so now i can focus more on self-expression and not get distracted by theatrics. and lets just leave it at there.
my recruits <3 they're damn goodboy. lolz most of the times they get scolded for sins of omission, rather than sins of comission. so different from the pes C guys. one extreme all the way to the other. and rumor has it that our next batch is PTP standard faintZ lor. ugh. worlds apart. but this group also has its share of problems. one guy in my section... refuses to interact with his sectionmates. refuses not to be a loner. faintZ even after i thrash down every single one of his arguments (and that talk lasted an hour at least), he REFUSED to promise me not to intentionally set himself apart from the rest. waaa *pulls my hair out*. but i guess the reason i can beat down all his arguments is cos i myself have been there done that. can empathize. thats the double edged sword of taking this batch. i can empathize so much with them. i can remember vividly the apprehension of my enlistment, the dread of first bookin and so much more.
ok la better get down to the agenda for this off. was thinking of going to do cny shopping with ben. or maybe go out with someone. jh's bday or smth. and then log organized a disney movie marathon!!! omg i really would have wanted to go. but then i tot a bit more and decided that all i really wanted to do was just to come home and just. be at home. u know? come home. home. the comfort, the security and the solace that this building provides from the layers of memories in every nook and cranny here. to eat aunty anula's food. to hug brilliant and play with candy. just languish.
so i'm all bathed and clean in my fav obs singlet, eager to slip into my bed with my memory pillow <3 (80 dollar one!) and my quilt and dream sweet dreams. but the way i reacted today to certain events disturbed myself so i wanna log it. no point to make. just a record.
i played the piano today while my sis was sleeping. i walked past the room and saw her sleeping. but i just continued playing. didn't think abt it just wanted to play after not having touched it for so long. but when she woke up she said to me in a curt manner, "don't play your piano will die right mel". i would have retorted. i had my dad's backing since he always asks us to play our piano. but i quickly recognize that i was the insensitive one. and it really upset me... that the first thing i did after not being home for so long was to piss her off. so i went to my room and just hid behind my book on my bed. didn't wanna see her.
on the comp, i saw in my ChatZ group that a few ppl were online. xb was one but his status was away. and i wanted to talk! to say hi. to ask how's things. he'd probably find it random and give me his monosyllabic answers (lolz if my assumption is wrong pls feel free to tell me off) but i would still do it anyway. but i didn't. i just opened up the ChatZ group, see his name there, and then minimize it again. i did that a few times. then he went offline. and i still continued doing it to see who else was there for me to chat with. just to have the luxury of options. but they all dwindled.
and then at bmt. i was on form today that's the good thing. but when shang came i said hi, waved my racket and just looked away. ruolin was there too. i talked more to her than him. i think the only thing i said to him was to ask him how long more his course was gonna be. and when i said bye i didn't. couldn't. wouldn't. even look into his eyes. just looked down and muttered a bye. thanks for the game.
buts. but but but. but this but that. srry sleepy. hasta la vista